Well, It's Official....

I am agnostic. I only say it is official because I posted it on Facebook.

I just felt really guilty about keeping "Methodist" on there because I am not really sure WHAT I believe in anymore. I felt more like a hypocrite than anything else.

Part of me REALLY wants to continue believing in God and Jesus Christ, mainly because my grandma was a very religious woman, and I want to live a life that would make her happy. But I shouldn't sacrifice my own happiness to satisfy my dead grandmother. My mother is always pressuring me to go to church, so that is another reason why I feel as though I should still try to believe.

But nearly every fiber of my being is telling me that logic is against religion--that history itself is against religion. I find it really hard to argue against science. Science is something that is tested and verified. Religion has no scientific or logical basis. It cannot be tested. It was only spread by word-of-mouth and written by humans.

And how am I supposed to believe that out of all the religions that have been and are now, that ONLY ONE of them can be, "The Way, The Truth, and The Light."

Because Jesus Christ was real? How do we know? And who are we to deny that any of the other long-held beliefs by polytheists are incorrect?

I don't like to argue with people about this because I don't know enough about the history of religion nor do I know the amount that I wish to know about science. So, normally when it comes to talking with other people about religion vs. science, I keep my mouth shut.

However, I just finished watching two documentaries about Christianity, and I would have to say, they have solidified my developing belief that I don't believe in the Christian God. These documentaries were, "The God That Wasn't There," and, "Religulous." Out of all the religions that came and went before any talk of Christ, they are all wrong? How? Says who? A few men who decided to write down what they heard a voice in their head telling them? Hmm. I don't think so.